My 3rd 30th Birthday......

Today marks another milestone in my life. I turn 32. I can’t ask more as I have everything (as for now…) in my life. I consider myself successful in my academic and career along with a proud husband to share with and enjoy life with our 2 beautiful kids, Ehsan & Erica. Nothing more can I ask except for our children’s health and success in their life. What ever it take to make them happy and become a successful and responsible person I will try to my very best to make it happen.

As I passed my life for more than 3 decades from a baby, little girl, teenager, adult, lady and a daughter, I do now appreciate life and people around me more. I do now understand that money (most of the time…) is not everything. Because even with a bag full of money when it does not come together with care, love and honesty it will not make one’s life happy. I may not come from a very rich family but with the unconditional care and love from both my parents, Alhamdulillah I am thankful and proud of what have I achieved now. Even though I know both of them have their own ways of showing their care and love.

And as I walk through the 7 years of life as a wife and a mother, I could not say much except for thanking Allah the All Mighty for what He had bless me with. A husband, that is full with love, understanding and sometimes pamper me with all my requirements and desires. My son, Ehsan who always break my nerve but at a same time a very responsible, cheerful, loving and a caring person. My daughter, Erica who has her own mind but so cute, cuddle, attractive, joyful and pamper. There’s no words that could describe what I felt for them. Allah knows best.

Khairyn's Party

We just came back from London 3 days ago and been invited by a good friend, Lyn for her daughter's birthday party. Still in holiday mood and being so lazy to start my routine I delightedly accepting the invitation. Mana taknya ajak datang waktu lunch. So I don't have to cook.

The party were supposed start at 2.00 p.m but due to other commitment we excuse our self to come earlier. So we arrived their place at 1.15 p.m. Of course nobody have not arrived. We start the makan-makan session together with the stories of London and others. I brought some bubur pulut hitam as I have no mood to do any baking.

Later the blowing candle session started and of course my son yang over dari the birthday girl. He was the one who conquer the table. Khairyn nak tiup tak boleh tapi dia nak tiup boleh. Adoi la anak. Macam ni kena buat blowing candle session every month la. After that I leave the kids to play for a while, while waiting for our driver. We left the party when others start coming.

Mummy Khairyn buat

The table full of foods


Happy birthday to you.......

Ehsan yang melebih-lebih

Push Khairyn Push....

After sending the kids back home with the maid, we headed to Khartoum International University. Actually both me and hubby volunterred to become a coach for the students from several universities across the Sudan for their Petronas Intervarsity Debate Competition (PAVED). The coaching session is part of a program by Petronas to help the Sudanese community in term of humanitarian needs, education and social. Despite Sudan, Petronas also send their staff to Acheh, Phillipine and Pakistan. This program is called Petronas Volunteer Opportunity Program (PVOP).

The session started with briefing from Mdm. Samah, Executive of Corporate Affairs from Petronas. After the briefing we were given our university and we have to help and coach them to prepare for the topics given. I was assigned to the medical students from Omdurman Islamic University. The session ended at 7.30 p.m. We were supposed to attend the dinner at 8.00 p.m but we excuse our self as we were both tired.

Muka kebosanan

Birthday wishes

I bet this month is the most people that I know celebrating their birthday and also welcoming their new people in life. In this special entry I would like to wish to all those who just got their bundle of joy.

Alena Hashim for her baby girl - Ailyn Sefira, 2nd July

Maslina for her baby boy - Muhammad Iskandar, 2nd July

Fauzal Amri for his baby boy - Baby Waiz, 3rd July

Aman my bro for his baby girl - Nafeesa Arafah Pfordten, 4th July

and not forgetting

Thomas Beatie for his baby girl. Have to read about him.

Not also forgetting for not so young anymore to those celebrating their birthday this month.

Yan Ijai for her 34th birthday on 1st July

Khairyn baby Lyn for her 2nd birthday on 5th July

Nasuha - for her 16th birthday on 9th July

Mama for her 60th birthday on 10th July

Daddy for his 67th birthday on 11th July

My best friend Nazlina Syazlind on her 31st birthday on 25th July

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL!!!!

Ehsan's 3rd Birthday

3 years had passed how I would turn back time over the moment when I was confirm pregnant. Ehsan was actually my 2nd pregnancy after I had a miscarriage soon after we got married. We waited almost 8 months to really prepare of trying again. On the day we supposed to celebrate Firhan's birthday (my BiL), we got a really happy news. I am expecting a baby. Of course the news a joy for others.

9 months of carrying Ehsan, seems so fast. And I was still working at that moment of time. He would always accompany me to work (eventhough he is still in my tummy) which took 45 minutes of journey from Sg. Buloh to KLIA. There were once when I was 4 months pregnant that I had to be admitted to the hospital. It is because I was diagnosed of having hypothyrodism. Apart from my illness the condition of the baby seems to be healthy.

In the morning of 2nd June I was awake at 5.00 a.m and felt stomach ache. I went twice to the loo before I ended up throwing up. Soon my mum told me just to get ready as she felt that my tummy started to become very hard. Took shower and went to the hospital at 8 am. Actually I was scheduled to go to the hospital for my weekly check-up but soon after the doctor checked she said that I already 2cm dialited. She asked me to go for one last time shopping in OU and be back to the hospital at 6 p.m. Knowing that I will be delivering a baby in nearest time to come, I just went back to our home and have a rest.

At 6.00 p.m I already in the hospital. I had to changed to the maternity gaun and waited for the gynae to checked. I was sent to a room at 8.00 p.m. During that time the pain had already started to feel but I still can bare it with the help of ethanox gas. No epidural at 1st as I told hubby I wanted to feel the pain. Not until 11.00 pm the pain was so unbareable that I asked for the epidural but the gynae told me that I was already 7cm dialited and she can't give it at this point. I was so much in pain that I can't remember anything.

The gynae checked again at 12.00 a.m and said that I was making no progress. She gave me another 2 hours until she decided to do the c-section on me. After 2 hours of pain it was still on 7cm dialitation that the gynae opt to operate me. I was asked to sign a consent letter before they prepare me for the opt. It was really a horror moment for me as I can feel the pain when they had to insert a tube inside my ***.

I was strolled into the labor room and the operation started. Hubby got the chanced to be in the room and videotaping the special moment for us. It was really a memorable moment when at 2.46 a.m of 3rd June 2005 the love of our life was born. Ehsan Reezal was named. And after 3 years of having him and Erica around, I felt my life already completed. Nothing much I would ask for, only to have and be for them all the time.

And so for Ehsan's birthday today we don't have any plan of doing any celebration here. Since we are planning for a holiday to London so we just thinking of celebrate it over there. Poor Ehsan for not having his friends to come and sing for him. But then during this month also lots of the families here went back to Malaysia for summer holiday.

Thus for not letting him down, I bake him a cake so that he could just blow the candle. Ehsan loves to blow candle regardless whether it's his or others. Kalau tak dapat candle batang mancis pun jadi. But I have to say that the cake I made I cheated a bit since I couldn't find the cooking chocolate for the topping. Instead I just bought Cadbury chocolate and made it for the topping. Everybody loves it so lepas ni takyah beli cooking chocolate.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING EHSAN. MAMA LOVES U SO MUCH!

The cake

The birthday boy

Happy Birthday to Nana & Adik

A lot of things happened today. Penuh pulak schedule harini....

1. Had my 1st food order for Centroid. I cooked Mee Kari. I found it easy as I don't have to pack it because they want it a buffet concept. Start cooking at 10.00 a.m and deliver to them at 12.00 p.m before they went for Friday prayer.

2. Got lunch invitation soon after came back from delivering the food. Invitation from our single status neighbor - Andrew & Asrul. Nice Nasi Lemak for lunch.

3. Went to our normal weekend outing - Karaoke. This time around we went to Raja Khidhir's place as he invited us before he went back for good to Malaysia next week. Usually we go to Scomi's residence.

4. And today also is my nephew and niece birthday. They shared the same birth date. I called to wish them and found out they are having a small party cum my family gathering in Bukit Antarabangsa. Sedih gila tak dapat join.

"To Nana & Adik Happy 15th & 11th birthday. Study hard for your PMR and Adik for your UPSR next year."

To my loving Son - Ehsan & my dearest sis - Eleeza

It is less than 2 months before Ehsan turns 3 this June. And before he turns 3, I had promised to myself that one of my resolution for this year is to potty train him. He is really testing my patience when he just keep quiet until the pant wet. Or the worst part is when he stands in a corner and do his business and suddenly berguguranlah peluru-peluru di atas lantai.

Hubby knows me well that I would easily get mad and lost patience but I promised to him and myself that I would try to control it and train until successful. Hubby said if we force him he will feel discourage and won't be cooperative. It is 100% true. Alhamdulillah for 2 weeks of close monitor I manage to potty train him. But of course when he had his nap in the evening and sleep during the night I would still put diapers on him. Well as of now I wont say that he is 100% potty train but having it done on the 1st place is quiet a big achievement to both Ehsan and me.

Well done Ehsan! Mama and Baba would like to present you a certificate for your great achievement. Lepas ni kita try bangun malam pulak pi toilet ok? Mama la yang tak tahan lepas ni....

And on this day also I would like to wish Happy Birthday to my only beloved sister - Kak Leeza on her 41st Anniversary.

"May you will be granted with healthy life and in Allah's protection all through the years. "

Birthday Bash Erica

Hari yang ditunggu sudah tiba... We had Erica's birthday party yesterday! It was tiring but full of fun. The house was crowded but I think we managed to entertain them all. And without fail, everybody asked of the significance of the 'pear' theme in the invitation card and the cake...

So here it goes ..... Erica was so chubby as a baby; so much so that she resembled a pear. TThis led to my mum starting to call her Pear! The nickname stuck; when hubby & I decided to do the party for her we thought it was a good idea to make the cake, the invitation cards, and colour theme for our guests (which was yellow and orange) to resemble pears as well!

We got some nice pics of the event - Happy birthday lil Pear!!

Venue : House No. 6, Block J, Khartoum 2

Time : 4.30 pm - 6.30 pm

Date : 29th March 2008

Before.....

Hubby putting up the home made birthday banner


The banner - all nice and ready.....


Me busy making the pudding....


The bolognaise sauce...


Mixed fruit pudding all set to go.....


Bumbu for meehoon Singapore...


The cake that I made - Pear shaped....

During.....

Birthday girl with Baba & Abang...

The Cake cutting ceremony ..

The crowd - the house was packed!


The food and drinks..

After....

Erica's presents....

Last but not least, we would like to thank all our friends and their children who came to celebrate with us and sharing their nice presents and making it such a memorable and meaningful event for the 4Es!

and to Najwa... Thanks for decorating the cake!

My Erica turns 1

Many faces or Erica...

Today our Erica turns 1. How time flies so fast. Erica had completed us as a family. Now we have a pair and Ehsan has a friend to play with and bully!

There are lots of memories that I wish to forget during my pregnancy. The memories that should be replace with something more cheerful and meaningful. The memories that I dare not share and remember anymore. But those memories also made me a better mother, wife, child and human being. That memories also that taught me of being grateful for what had been written by Allah. Alhamdulillah I have families and a husband that are so understanding, supporting and caring during that period.

I first got to know about my pregnancy in mid August 2006 which is a month after we came back from Malaysia for summer holiday. It was an unexpected news for us as I never had any plan to conceive in Sudan. It wasn't that I didn't want another child, but Sudan is not the right place for us to have a baby, and with my health condition that need to be monitored. I used to have hyperthyroidism when I was 18 but when I was pregnant to Ehsan I had develop hypothyroidism which required me have long-life treatment. Due to that I had a very tough time during my pregnancy with Erica. I didn't have regular check up as I usually did when I was with Ehsan. I had no one to help me around plus I was busy in my 4th semester of MBA and still needed to do the house chores as usual. It was also worrying me as I just had Ehsan through cesarean procedure a year before. It really makes the pregnancy process tough and difficult for me in Sudan.

Later in January 2007, during the 7th month of pregnancy hubby sent me & Ehsan back to Malaysia, where we stayed for 7 months. It was really sad having to go for check up without a husband around. But luckily I had a family that was so caring and took care of us while hubby were not around. I had to defer my 5th semester as I didn't feel like I can cope with the situation alone.

Despite the illness and being alone I also were quite worried with the delivery process. Every time when I went for a check up, I will always ask the same question (I got the same answer from 3 different doctors). Do I have the chance to deliver my baby normally? And the answer was NO. With my history with Ehsan when I didn't dilate enough, the doctor said I wouldn't be able to deliver normally. And so I had to choose the date for Erica's delivery, and we decided on 24th March 2007.

At 6.30am, on the morning of 24th March 2007, the whole family got ready to send me off to Apollo Medical Center in TTDI. We arrived at 7.00 a.m and immediately the nurse asked me to change into a hospital gown. I was first asked to take the 'atomic enema' but since I had done my 'business' earlier, I declined it nicely. Nasib la nurse baik-baik....

Later I was brought to the operation theater and was prepared for the spinal block. It was really painful as I can feel the needle being inserted. I squeezed the doctor's hand hard as the pain was so unbearable. 15 minutes later, the scrubs were busy inserting the urine tube into my bladder and I started to feel uncomfortable, and asked one of the nurses to massage my back. It was quite a long procedure I felt, as compared to Ehsan as I was awake and knew what to expect this time; Ehsan was an emergency case, and that felt like it took a short while only.

Alhamdulillah, Erica was safely out of my tummy at 8.38 a.m with no complication. Her weight was just 2.7 kg, 300 grams less than Ehsan. But the most memorable thing was when a practical student, who was observing the procedure, fainted the moment the doctor delivered Erica from my tummy! I guess the blood made him dizzy! Hmmm apa jadi dengan budak tu sekarang???

I was put on morphine after the operation as a pain killer and I didn't take any food for 2 days due to that. I was only been given Milo to give me strength. After 3 days in the hospital I was allowed to go back. Alhamdulillah, Erica was fine and had no jaundice.

A year has passed, and I could see the differences between Ehsan and Erica. Erica is more independent compared to Ehsan. She can play by herself, but the moment she wants milk or is sleepy she would become so cranky. She is so hard to be put to bed, and would crawl all over the bed until she found her best position to sleep in. She eats more, but sleeps less compared to Ehsan. She had her 1st tooth when she was 10 months old and started walking when she turned 1. In contrast, Ehsan got his 1st tooth when he was 1 year old and started walking when he was 10 months old.

Nothing makes me happier than to celebrate my children's differences. I hope that Erica will become anak yang solehah when she grows up. My only wish for her on her 1st anniversary is just...

"...to be my cute and lovely daughter forever for the rest of my life...Mama loves u so much darling....."